Monday, June 29, 2009

Clubbing 10+ years later

I have never been much of a clubbing girl. My time for going out every other weekend was when I turned 18 (legal age to get into a club and drink, in Mexico). My girlfriends and I would go to the clubs, hoping they would let us in, and then just dance, sing and drink. It was fun.

I just went to a club after a long time. It is not fun anymore, or at least, the specific club we went to, wasn't. The drinks were good. The music was horrible. Apparently they had a special DJ that night. He played only house music which, I don't like that much, it doesn't make me want to dance. We went to ask him to play some MJ, hoping that he would agree because of MJ's recent death. The assistant of the DJ (talk about a great job) told us that he didn't take requests. The dance floor was practically empty and he wouldn't change the music. Isn't that suppose to be the DJ's job? To make everyone dance?

Anyway, that was a no-go. So, some of my friends did dance a little. The rest of us were just drinking and people-watching. That was fun, checking outfits of people coming in and betting if they were going to let them in or not, based on the clothes. The problem was that all bets were off because some people on horrible outfits were friends with the bouncer. So, that too ended up not being fun anymore.

When we first got in we noticed a couple of women that had that look of easiness, to say it in a decent way. All trough the night we noticed them talking to several guys and we were very curious to find out if they really were what we thought they were. Almost at the end of the night one of them was talking to a guy that was behind us, so we got to listen to their conversation. What we thought was true, they were talking prices! This place is the second most popular and nice club in town so we were not expecting that. The expected part was that it was full of young people, a lot of daddy-boys and girls and the opposite spectrum too, a lot of 40+ people. There were the usual hammered guys hitting on my married friends, including the pregnant one, jajajaja. One gay guy checking out my very cute and very married friend. And a stupid jerk that threw his still-lit cigarette out without looking, it ended up on my dress and I burned my finger a little to get it off. Fortunately the dress was not damaged, I would've been severely pissed off if that had happen.

I found amusing that I can go for 4-5 days in a row going to bed at 2-3 am when I'm in Hermosillo, then drive back to Tucson (6+ hours drive), no problem. But, yesterday I was very tired after going to bed at 3 am and waking up at 10. Another thing, how is it that people meet other people in this places? I mean, potential dates. It is impossible to talk. Anyway, call me boring but I don't think that I'll be clubbing again any time soon.

Friday, June 19, 2009

First love

There's a time for everything, you said last night in my dream. Even while I was asleep I thought; no, there never was a time for us. Seeing you last week affected me more than I realized until now. I knew there was a chance that you would be there, that didn't help. I haven't seen you in 8+ years. It was still a shock.

Seeing you reminded me of the time when I loved you. Even though we were never together, the hope that it might have happen, made me happy. I don't love you anymore, how could I? I fell in love with the man you were becoming but I don't really know the man you became. I know you are happy now, that is bitter-sweet for me, I'm happy for you but, I find myself longing for what I don't have. I feel empty.

It is not just the loneliness, it is the fact that I haven't care for anyone in a long time. The need to love someone is even stronger than the need to feel loved. I never thought that would happen to me, given that I fall in love easily. Or, at least, I used to fall in love easily. Maybe that's not me anymore, my walls got higher and thicker after my inside got shattered 9 years ago. That wasn't your fault but, at some level, I blame you. If you had felt what I felt the story would have been very different. I can't get all the "ifs" to go away and that hurts.

Monday, June 8, 2009

You know you live (or at least have driven) in Tucson when...

1. You know at least 3 people who have been in car accidents
2. You are the 3rd car waiting for the green light and you don't get to cross the intersection
3. If you are not the first car waiting for the green arrow on Oracle and River you will get your picture taken by the traffic camera
4. You go 25 mph in 40 mph zones (thanks to the one in front of you, of course)
5. You come to a full stop because the car in front of you is trying to make a right turn
6. You don't know if your car is well balanced because every street in Tucson is depressed at a certain angle
7. You know at least one person that has had a tire blown in a pot-hole
8. You have been honked at by a Mexican (hmmm ok, Sonoran)
9. You know at least 3 people who have gotten their cars broken into (I know 4, including me)
10. You don't understand why people brake right after they pass a traffic light

25 sad songs in English

My favorite sad songs in english.

25. Sorry seams to be the hardest word. Elton John
24. Nothing compares to you. Sinead O’Connor
23. With or without you. U2
22. Hello. Lionel Richie
21. I want to know what love is. Foreigner
20. November rain. Guns ‘n roses
19. Streets of Philadelphia. Bruce Springsteen
18. Always. Bon Jovi
17. I’ll be loving you forever. New kids on the block
16. I need you. New kids on the block
15. It must have been love. Roxette
14. Dust in the wind. Kansas
13. All by myself. Celine Dion
12. The reason. Hoobanstank
11. How am I suppose to live without you. Michael Bolton
10. Anyone. Roxette
9. Please forgive me. Bryan Adams
8. You are still the one. Shania Twain
7. More than words. Extreme
6. Don’t speak. No doubt
5. Because of you. Kelly Clarkson
4. One more time. Laura Pausini (Richard Marx)
3. Goodbye. Air supply
2. Total eclipse of the heart. Air supply
1. Making love out of nothing at all. Air supply

25 random things about me

1. I cry with almost every movie I watch.

2. I have read all the Harry Potter books, at least twice. I have seen all the Harry Potter movies up to date, at least 3 times each.

3. I am a nerd and I'm not afraid to say it.

4. I like Science Fiction books but, I really enjoy cheesy Romance novels.

5. I am a spoiler aunt/Godmother.

6. I use to play the flute in the marching band in high school and college.

7. I get really cranky when I'm hungry.

8. I hate putting dishes and clean clothes back in place.

9. I use to hate getting my picture taken and when I did I wouldn't smile. Now my smile is the most prominent thing in all my pictures. I thank Daniel Justiniani for that ;-).

10. I will wear a pair of White Converse Shoes if I ever get married.

11. I get grossed out by people that bite their nails, specially men.

12. I cried the 2 times I have seen my favorite singer, Miguel Bose, in concert.

13. I love to travel but I have only been in 2 countries, Mexico and USA.

14. I have never seen more than 2 inches of snow.

15. I bought my first car when I was 30 years old.

16. I love Claude Monet's paintings.

17. Green is my favorite color.

18. I can't have video games near me because one I star playing it is really hard to stop. My record is around 12 hours. I only play when I am in Hermosillo, just for the sake of my Godson (yeah right!), jajajajajaa.

19. When I am almost over with a meal I count how many pieces of beef, chicken, etc, whatever I am eating and divide my bread, tortilla, cracker, etc, accordingly. Sometimes I do it viceversa.

20. I usually coordinate the color of my clothes with my purse, shoes and most of the times, underwear.

21. I had to take the GRE test twice to enter Grad-school, I still don't know how I got a good score the second time.

22. I have a huge family, 4 brothers, one sister, 4 nephews, one niece, around 40 first cousins who have I don't know how many kids, jajaja.

23. I make really good pancakes and an ever better guacamole.

24. I love to live by myself but I need to have the TV or the radio on at all times, just to have some noise.

25. I have to read something not-work-related before I go to bed every night.