Saturday, August 20, 2011

No more fairytales

I'm done believing in soulmates or in that concept of the almighty love. The one that makes us want to spend every waken moment with that other person. The one that thinks everything is perfect. The one that thinks you are perfect in every way. The one that blinds us.

Don't get me wrong, I still believe in love. I just don't believe I will ever find someone that loves me the way I described it above. Maybe that's ok though. I want someone that sees my faults and helps me improve on them. I want someone that despite being attracted to someone else doesn't act on it, because he would know that in doing so he could lose one of the best things that ever happened to him. Because he would know that in doing so he would hurt me and break me beyond repair. I want a friend who can talk to me about everything, from how boring his day was to what the future might hold if aliens come to Earth.

I want someone that holds my hand when we are walking on a slippery shore. I want someone that hugs me when I say I had a bad day. I want someone that hugs me for no reason. I want someone that kisses me because I said something funny. I want someone that kisses me just because. I want someone that wants to start a family with me but that would consider our relationship as a couple above the children, because children leave and then we would only have each other. I want someone that values me as a companion, a friend and a lover.

I guess I don't deserve any of that.

7 comments:

  1. Oh noes :(

    Okay. No Diana, you DO deserve it! Never think you don't deserve something. If someone lets you go...it is his loss. Not yours. Someone who doesn't value you for who you are, doesn't deserve you. A love like a fairytale doesn't exist indeed. You need someone who grows with you and who understand and accept you for who you are.

    I'm so sorry it didn't work out with him though :( I know you need time to put this behind you and flash your pretty smile again, but I am glad that you still believe in love.

    I send you lots of hugs and some flan!!!

    Xxxxx

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  2. Thanks TJ, I do believe in love because I've seen it time an again, I just don't believe I will find it for me.

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  3. Diana, you deserve all of that and more, and you'll have it someday. He just wasn't the right one.

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  4. Thanks Marty, I hope you are right :)

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  5. You DO deserve it and you will find it :)

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  6. You're awesome and I love that you are blogging more. It has always helped me when I am going through a rough patch :)

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