Goodbye 2011

Life in the dating world had be start this year with a person that left a deep mark in me. We were together until my love just wasn't enough to fill the emptiness that he felt. It was hard to understand that giving all of me wasn't enough for him. However, now that I see things from the outside, I know how fraked that relationship was. How our communication was non-existent, especially when it came to matters of the heart. We had fun and we talked about trivial things all the time. Yet, there was never a talk about our feelings; we never made plans for the future; there was always the thought behind my back that it was going to end. It still took a lot of will power on my part to leave. He didn't fight back and that was probably what truly ended it for me. Realizing that he didn't love me at all was what allowed me to start moving on.

I didn't expect anything to happen but, against all odds, I met someone. In a short time he has showed me how important it is to communicate, to open up, to not hide my feelings. It took me a while to be able to really let him in. He was persistent in tearing down the wall I had raised in front of me because he could see inside through a tiny window I left there. He knew it was worth it, he knew I was worth it. No, it is not perfect, it is a lot of work but, working together makes any burden disappear. Little by little my heart is mending.

For the first time in my life I know how reciprocated love feels like. There is nothing else like it.

B, I want to thank you for being patient with me, for not let me go, for making me realize that I am worthy of being loved, for giving me the chance of helping you in the process too, for making me happy. I'm not afraid to say "te amo" anymore. Gracias mi amor and I hope this year brings us closer together and happier than ever. I love you.